Kawaiipixel

Today I went to school four hours early, all motivated to finish my homework for this week. I, as always, ended being distracted and just staring at my text book. They wanted me to make a program which would simulate a FIFO and LRU algorithm. Well, anyone who knows me knows I despise maths so the moment I read the word algorithm I pretty much gave up.

Hours later, I suddenly saw the light and figured out how to do the FIFO thing (or at least…it looks like it`s working ), but since it was 10 pm when I figured it out it was too late to fix the LRU. So I still haven`t finished my homework *sigh* But at least I`m getting there!

Early this evening I completely crashed in the kitchen when thinking about how awful I`ve been doing at school lately (well, really I haven`t but as I said before… combination of fear to fail and perfectionism makes me messed up) and I sulked for quite a while but then my dad and cat came to give me a hug and tell me that I rocked, and that they wouldn`t mind the slightest bit if I had to retake some classes. I love them <3<3<3

I tried to do some more art too, but I miserably failed.

Ah well, you`ll see more of me soon *hugs*
-Bernadet

P.s. I`m going on a date tomorrow *squeals*

I`m seriously considering to join the leaving-members-bandwagon and leave lotrplaza, since some seriously questionable decisions seem to be made there lately. Members who work hard (which doesn`t include me anymore ) get ignored and members who doesn`t seem significant in any way get promoted. It`s weird, and I haven`t met a single member who didn`t think something weird was going on behind the scenes there. Ah well, since we can`t watch behind the scenes we`ll never know

School`s still killing me by the way! Because of my awful combination of perfectionism and the fear to fail I get stressed whenever something doesn`t go according to plan….and things haven`t been going according to plan lately. I really need a hug and some happiness in my life now!

kthnxbye

We have this business interview at school next week for which we need to dress formal. Now I do ofcourse have formal clothes but I couldn`t resist this opportunity to go shopping with my parents and receive new clothes. Unfortunately, it took a lot longer than expected because of my horrible body type.

Seriously, my hips-to-waist ratio is insane, my hips are way too big for my waist. Whenever something fits on my hips it`s about 3 sizes too big on my waist, and when something fits on my waist it`s about 3 sizes too small on my hips. It makes me pout, I wish I was normal and pretty *goes emo*

But after a long search I found a skirt which fit my hips and was only slightly too big on my waist (I usually wear skirts which close at the waist and are loose from this point on to avoid the issue all-together but that`s not a good business look) and a cute blouse. So I`m a happy bunny now.

I also made some new art stuff. A baby which is too creepy to show so I won`t but you can see it in on the digital art page (for now, until it freaks me out too much), a girl and some cutesie animals. Here are the girls and the animals:

Hey everyone!

It really sucks but Kawaiipixel has been hacked a day ago. They didn`t change anything but they tried to attack other sites through this domain. If anything malicious was done to you through this domain, I do apologize. They had changed my password but my host was able to resend it to me and I quickly changed my password. I hope no more trouble will be caused, especially since my host told me my domain will be suspended if it happens again.

I also had to immediately delete my subdomains, since I was attacked from one of them. So I`m so so so so terribly sorry hostees that your sites were deleted. Most of you weren`t around anymore but I know how awful it is to lose your site, but we couldn`t risk to let the site open to any more attacks.

*hugs*

Ohai! Just poppin` in here to show you the new drawings I made. This time I tried my two favourite deliciously evil characters. Or..maybe just delicious *insert eyebrow smiley here*

Anywayy…Lucius Malfoy (Harry Potter) and Eric Northman (Southern Vampire Mysteries/True Blood). Yes..I have a serious thing for long blonde hair on guys, I just can`t resist it *g*

Lucius:

Eric: